Well, here we are again. Josh and I are finally back in San Francisco, almost done with our first week of ministry. I am stepping into my new role as the communications department….director/only staff/lone ranger/whatever you want to call me
This last bit of time has been really hard for me. I have struggled with the constant moving, the unknown seeming to always be what is in front of me. Adapting to this new lifestyle has been difficult also. I am not yet used to being supported by others, nor have I been able to grab exactly what about my passion I need to share with others. I love what we do, and I’m amazed everyday I wake up and realize God fulfilled all that he placed on my heart years and years ago. (Some day soon I’ll finally get my whole story written out to share with you.)
As I continue to process and share what life is like, here is a thing I wrote while in Thailand in a time where I felt very alone and like I was missing God, though he was right in front of me. (I am by no means a writer…so please have grace for my inept attempt at poetry)
Below is a photo of my view while writing. Also a photo from our rooftop in Bangkok, a favorite place for many of us.
I miss you
I miss the cold,
and the newness of spring,
the dead of winter or the color of fall
I miss laying in the grass,
swinging by the water.
I miss being with you,
I miss the ways of home, the people there
the connections I know and understand.
I’ll find you here though,
wherever you may send me – I’ll find you there.
I’ll choose to see how you work,
And where you want me.
I’ll find the beauty in a place unknown,
because I know you are here.
I know your hand in the colors here,
I see your smile in the people here,
I’ve heard your laughter in those that surround me.
I’ve enjoyed your presence in the
company of those around me.
I see your beauty and grace,
humility and gentleness,
all of you in the people of this place.
Please continue to pray for Josh and I as we walk out this unknown path before us.
We love everyone of you, and hold you all in our hearts.